Tag Archives: bar

February

Wearing out my welcome, again.

The night is cold and vast, like the

Sahara or the Antarctica, it is

impossible to fill.

 

Outside the bar, belly full,

heart empty, I try to think

of a place to run to, any escape,

anyone who would receive me.

 

I can’t stand the cold, the night,

my apartment, my exhausted heart.

It is February, and it is its own night,

and it is just as endless and unfillable.

 

Self-medicate with Sad Bastard music

on the way home, or with ghost stories

on an audiobook, marking time until

all is quiet, and I have to live with my ache.

North Star

Same bar, after all these years, and you just happened to find me.
I’m drinking hot, black coffee, now instead pitcher of Coors Light.
I’m constantly chomping on sugarless gum instead of smoking.
I’m content to be alone now, instead of madly chasing after you.
We’re both older, and greyer and fatter, than those long ago years.
You’re son is grown, I’m at peace with my life, you’re not my North Star.
What ever magic you had on me is long gone now, please leave me alone.
I don’t know what I ever saw in you. I sure as hell don’t see it now.
Finally, you say goodbye, and my heart is ripped up, for the world
we dreamed in is shattered, and if I hadn’t seen you, I wouldn’t ache for it.
Just cast my head down, don’t let the waitress see my tears, drink coffee.
It is winter now, and soon the cold snow will soothe my dreams.

Dynamo

The winter is early this year.

Flakes of snow fall,
Shed from angel’s wings.
Their breath so cold
Chases away the day,
And bring dreams of her.
The bar is warm, loud, dim.
She welcomes me from the cold.
Her heart is a dynamo
Lighting up the stars.
Her eyes we’re plucked
To make the moon
And the sun.
Harmless flirtation.
Her sweetness, kindness,
Touches and smiles free
Like the snow falling.
Snow covers the filth in white.
Snow let’s me sleep quietly.
Alone in my room, one last beer,
And then dreams of light
That her hearts threads through me,
The stars orbiting her head, a crown.
Dream of her dynamo heart beating
With all the light god ever gave us.
Dedicated to RLP