Emily Jane and me sharing a cigarette.
Not a kiss. Not a kiss. Not a kiss.
Emily Jane says the flaming, circling swords
keep her out of the one place that was warm.
I lay beside her on the bare mattress,
watch her play a fantasy video game.
The boy in the game wins a princess.
In her life she won wisdom, patience, agape.
It’s dark at four in the afternoon, storm outside.
The grey is soothing and comforting; we are safe.
She plays the game, and we share silence, perfection.
Lust and tenderness as I watch the lights on her face.
Afterwards, almost six, I make us cheese sandwiches.
We drink cold glasses of milk, as the sky rumbles in anger.
She’s going to do mission work in Kentucky tomorrow, early.
I’m going too. She’ll never be mine, but I want to be like her.